Why I am Not Disappointed

This is my very first blog, my first shout into cyberspace, except for e-mail, of course. Hello, hello, hellloooooo... Will anyone read this? And if so, will they be "not disappointed"?

That actually isn't why I gave my blog its name. It comes from a verse in the Bible which touched me recently:

"In Thee they trusted, and were not disappointed." Psalm 22:5b

Have you ever read a verse in the Bible that, on the face of it, seemed pretty simple, but then, on second glance, was packed with meaning? This verse was that for me.

The Bible exhorts us to trust in God. Verse after verse calls us to cast our cares upon our Heavenly Father, and trust in Him. And that's all well and good until that trust is put to the test. Then, when that trust is all we have to cling to, like a rope dropped out of heaven, while everything around us is crumbling, we may begin to wonder, "What happens if I trust in this rope? How long will I have to hang here? Who's extending the rope and how strong is He? How can I be assured that He's someone who really cares about me and has my best interests in mind? Is that Someone really able to take complete care of me?"

That's why the second part of the verse above is so meaningful. "In Thee they trusted, and were not disappointed." Not disappointed. If you choose to grab onto God's rope, you may not be able to see where He's taking you. You may look down and see nothing but rubble and clouds of dust as your world falls to pieces. You may hang there for some time while God does His work behind the scenes, but you can absolutely KNOW that however it turns out: you will not be disappointed. If you trust in God, He will reward you by exceeding your expectations.

I know because I've been there. My trust in God was put to the test nearly two years ago when my 20-year-marriage ran into a brick wall. I never even saw it coming. It just seemed that all of a sudden, I had a bitter husband who became increasingly distant, like an astronaut who was floating away from me in space, his lifeline severed by...himself.

That's why I'm writing this blog, to talk about why I am Not Disappointed. Our marriage is still very rocky. I am actually typing this with one hand, while gripping onto God's rope with the other as I hang precariously over the rubble of our first twenty years.

I am not writing as one who has made it back into the land of happy endings. I am writing as one who is still in the midst of a troubled marriage, still dangling by God's lifeline, still trusting in Him who makes all things new.

This is not to say that God is not working in our marriage. The fact is, God has had to do enormous foundational work before He could even begin to reconstruct our marriage. That takes time, and as one with very little patience, I have often lost heart. During those times, I have repeated that verse over and over: "In Thee they trusted, and were not disappointed."

In future blogs, I will share about the things I've learned through these last two years, and how, time and again, God has revealed Himself through this process, and urged me to keep believing that if I trust in Him, I will not be disappointed.